This pretty much sums up our rehearsal dinner. It was epic. It was hilarious. It was creative. It was so much fun!Read More
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This morning it was my turn to lead staff devotions. Sometimes you have been so on fire and inspired by something God has taught you recently, which makes this task easy. And other times, He's just been giving quiet whispers that are hard to put a finger on. This week was the latter for me, and I felt nervous about coming up with something meaningful.Read More
Love is leaving hidden notes all over the house to be delightfully discovered during the week of his absence.
Love is subscribing to my Facebook and blog posts in order to always be 'in the know' of what is going on in my life, even though he's probably already heard it.
Love is learning together what it means to be a family.
Love is swing, salsa, and foxtrot.Read More
Last week, we heard the love story of the leaders of our pre-marital counseling class. It was a fairly normal story, except for a 5 year, life-changing car accident that happened mid-marriage. This car accident led to brain damage and a significantly different man than was once a part of that marriage relationship.
Hearing that story and reading one of my pre-marital books that talked about how to deal with disease and sickness as you and your mate grow older have been a heavy weight on me the last few days. No one wants to go through such things, but they're a part of life, and there's no getting away from them. There will be pain, sorrow, and suffering--Jesus promised us this. His response was to "take heart!" for He had "overcome the world." As a Christian, it's easy to say, "Yes, of course, we live in an imperfect world, and we have hope for a future in heaven." But when those difficulties come, we despair just like the next person.
Of course, I would never choose for something terrible to happen to Reagan and I or our families, but if they do, how would I deal with it? That's the question I've been asking myself lately. This question brought me to asking myself what marriage is for exactly. I read a great book called The Meaning of Marriage by Timothy Keller. Seriously, an excellent read. He talked about marriage from God's perspective, and though it's been a long time since I've read it, I seem to remember him talking about how these bad things can happen and what is our response. I tried to find the book last week to reread it, but without success. Hopefully, it will show itself soon! ;)
Among other things that marriage is for, I believe it is to provide a picture of the radical love God has for his people--the church. I've heard that for a long time, but what I started contemplating this week was what kind of people the church is made up of--sinful people. People who are dedicated but still mess up, people who are hypocrites but pretend they're not, people who are legalistic about rules, rules, and more rules, people who are praising God one day and saying they don't believe in Him the next. Think about that in a marriage context. God is faithful; the Bible tells us that. So imagine God as a constant in this relationship, married to people who give up on Him in a heartbeat, who turn to other things to fill their needs, who claim He's asking too much and go their own way, who see Him as a dictator instead of a lover. How heartbreaking would this be for God--He, who passionately loves this church, who would never give up on them no matter how much they hurt Him? Can you imagine what we would do if this is what our husband or wife did to us? In our culture, we'd be gone in a heartbeat!
So what does this tell us exactly?
1) Love takes risks. God takes a HUGE risk on us by loving us unconditionally. Love is risky because you're not guaranteed to get back what you're giving. God wants nothing but the best for us. He pours out His blessing continually, and if we really matched that with how much passionate love we give back to Him, I think most of us would find we're giving back very half-heartedly and very sparingly in comparison. God doesn't have to love us, but He does more than anything. Nothing we do can ever shake that love. God risks everything He has in His heart to have a close, deep relationship with us. He let His own child die just to be closer to us!
How many of you have a relationship you've been in where you took great risk, and it didn't work out in the end? Probably most of us can relate to that. How many of you can say, "I'm glad it happened," now that it's over? I think the only way it's possible to truly and honestly say that is if you believe that God has a bigger purpose in mind for you. I've been through my share of heartbreak, and I can say that I know God used that heartbreak to help me figure out who I am as His daughter. I have more confidence in myself, a better understanding of God's love for me, and have met an even greater guy to spend my life with. I'm grateful for the change that happened in me, and that I trusted God's way over mine. It doesn't mean it's easy to take risks. It's hard, and it hurts sometimes. But if we think about what God did for us with Jesus, we have to believe that He's got a bigger and better purpose for us--one that will make us more fulfilled and whole.
2) Love is committed. Does God give up on the church? No. Should you give up on your marriage? No. I believe this with all my heart. I believe that there's no "perfect person" to marry. I don't know about you, but I'm certainly not perfect, so why should I expect to find a perfect husband? What I do believe is that God brings us the opportunity to love someone in their imperfections.
I do not say this to hurt anyone or say you did it wrong, but I'm always a little puzzled when people leave their marriages because they "found someone better." Didn't you think your current spouse was the best person around when you first started dating? I am saddened that people get blinded by that initial euphoria and expect those feelings to stick around forever. They won't. They come and go. It's really not about the feelings, it's about the choice to be committed just as God is committed to us even when we do things He doesn't like. If you get hung up on the feelings, then you miss out on the wonderful blessings happening in your marriage. Anybody you choose to marry is going to do things you don't care for, things that annoy you, things that make you hurt and angry (and guess what? You'll do those things to them too!). Life is going to get hard with kids, work, sex, exhaustion, and finances. Every couple has things that are difficult. You can't stay in the honeymoon phase. What I would encourage you to do for yourself, is talk to couples who have been married 30, 40, 50 years. Ask them if they wish they had stayed in the honeymoon phase. I can guarantee they'll say they're glad they didn't--that marriage is even more beautiful and enjoyable now than it was back then. And I believe that part of the beauty is that they chose to stay committed through the imperfections--just as God does with us.
If we are living our lives with these two principles in mind--principles that God has demonstrated to us Himself in the way He loves us--then I believe we'll be able to handle those occasions when accidents happen, brain damage changes a person emotionally, cancer develops, miscarriages happen, and age takes its toll. If we approach those difficulties knowing that loving that person was a risk we chose to take, and we're going to be committed to them alone no matter what happens because we trust that God is good and has a plan far bigger and better than we can imagine, then I really believe things will turn out okay. They may not be easy. They may not turn out the way we'd want them to. But in the end, I think we'll be able to look back and say, "I'm glad it happened. Look at the good that came out of this."
I'll leave you with some of my favorite quotes that relate to this:
"Joy is knowing in the midst of your suffering that you're exactly where you're supposed to be." - Bart Campolo
"Though our feelings come and go, God's love for us does not." - C. S. Lewis
"It shows a lack of judgment and courage to avoid having good things because we are afraid of losing them. Because they are always worrying about what might go wrong, most are unable to enjoy their present opportunities for happiness." - Plutarch
"To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable...The only place outside of Heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers and perturbations of love is Hell." - C. S. Lewis
"Do not waste time bothering whether you "love" your neighbor; act as if you did.As soon as we do this we find one of the great secrets. When you are behaving as if you loved someone you will presently come to love him." - C. S. Lewis
"What God has brought together, let no man separate." Mark 10:9
I've been making my way through a plethora of marriage books as we begin premarital counseling. Among the masses, I'm currently working my way through "Happily Ever After" by Gary Chapman. The first section was about constructive arguing--a topic for another post at another time! I just started the second part, and had to laugh that the first pages were about this idea of 'wishing he would change.' You'll appreciate the humor more when I tell you that a friend and I were just discussing that very thing this morning! Funny how God does that...gives you His two cents after you've tried to work through your own two cents.
What should we do about desiring to change things in our significant other? We of course want our relationship to be successful. We desire both of us to become better people. God is continually working in us and changing us into the men and women we're supposed to be. But is it our job to ask him or her to change?
As women, the majority of us are very introspective. Being emotional allows us to understand what's going through our heads and our hearts as different situations arise. We also understand that due to the differences between men and women, we can't really expect men to know what we're thinking. The female brain is known for being a great mystery. So we take matters into our own hands and set about trying to educate them. "What I really need you to do is _____." "If you would just ______ I'd be happier." "It would mean a lot if you _____." Do I think it's a bad thing to do this? Not necessarily, but I think it's important to recognize your motivation for doing so, to take care in your approach, and to know when it's time to stop and allow the Holy Spirit to work.
Sound good so far; sum it up for me, Tabitha!
1. Understand you and your significant other are not perfect and never will be on this earth. You're not a perfect person, I'm not a perfect person, and anyone you build a relationship with is not going to be either. It's not about finding the perfect person; it's about finding someone who's willing and committed to working through the imperfections as a team.
2. God asks you to examine yourself first. Maybe it's an attitude or an unfair expectation. Maybe it's demanding your significant other give you something you desire when you haven't followed through with his request from you. God has no problem revealing to us what needs change if we are willing to put aside our pride and humbly ask Him to show us. (Psalm 139:23-24 is a good place to start with that prayer!) Also remember that our personal issues do not depend on someone else's actions. If God asks you to be more respectful to authority, you don't get to say "I'd be more respectful, if my boss would just acknowledge my efforts once in a while." It's not about the other person. It's about you. Along the same lines, it is not our job to convict others; that is the job of the Holy Spirit. The Bible tells us to take the log out of our own eye before pointing out the splinter in another's eye. I believe this desire to change someone pertains to that. God asks us to work on our own imperfections first.
3. Instead of focusing on how they can better love you, focus on how you can better love them. I don't know about you, but I've seen that when someone does something nice for me--gives me a compliment, buys me a little gift, encourages me--then my natural response is to reciprocate that.
4. Rely on God to fill your needs. Are you investing in a relationship with the Lord? Or are you simply waiting around for your someone special to meet your needs? If it's the latter, I want to encourage you that there is no one in the world that can fulfill ALL your desires more completely than the Lord. He knows you inside and out--better than any other human EVER could, and His heart is so full of love for you that He would do ANYTHING for you! (And He already did on the cross!) I believe God longs to spend time with us, to encourage us, to hold us, to help us see ourselves the way that He sees us. Are you allowing Him to do so?
5. After doing the above things, I think it's okay to present a request--but it is just that: a request. It is not a time for criticism or demands or manipulation. Saying "I hate how you never acknowledge me during the day," is not helpful or loving. It will also most likely put him on the defense. Instead, approach with kindness, "I loved that text you sent me yesterday while you were at work to let me know that you were thinking about me. I was having a rough day, and it meant so much. I was walking on clouds the rest of the afternoon!" Ask yourself, 'How would I like this to be presented to me if we had swapped places?' The Golden Rule is key. It's also important not to keep nagging if we don't see the results we desired. Nagging communicates disrespect and tells him that we think he's a failure--that he can't do it on his own, and he has to have our help. This is not a parent-child relationship.
6. Pray for him. Prayer changes things. Ultimately, your significant other is not in your hands, (which is probably a good thing!). Let God be in charge of his life. God cares about him even more than you do.
My pastor and his family live by the motto 'Expect nothing, appreciate everything." I come back to that over and over again. Choose to live with appreciation for the things he does right, instead of always nitpicking what he could be doing better.
I don't write this post because I've figured it all out or because I do all these things perfectly. I write this because I was reminded today that God has taught me things and given me wisdom that is meant to be shared, not kept to myself. I'm blessed to be marrying a man who is very kind with me in presenting his requests. It is my hope and prayer that I can return the favor. I join you in this journey of trusting God to change me to be the woman He created me to be.
Love is when he belts out guilty pleasure songs in the car at the top of his lungs and with his best vocal impersonations--completely unashamed in front of me. Love is when he expresses happiness that the guy got the girl at the end of a chick flick that he watched (and enjoyed!) with me.
Love is when he asks forgiveness when it was me that was in the wrong.
Love is when he calls me every single day--even just for one minute because he knows the sound of his voice lifts my spirits when he's away and helps sustain me until he's again by my side.
Love is when he vocally exudes his eagerness to make me his wife.
Love is when he takes an interest in wedding planning--when he joins in on checking things off the to-do list and imagining other elements of greatness.
Love is when he reaches over, holds my hand, and says "I love you" at the end of a disagreement.
Love is knowing I've found the man I want to commit to being by the side of for the rest of my life.
It's true, true, true! I, who have been playing second mommy to a class full of kindergartners every week and who have been Pinteresting away all my fabulous ideas for the unknown wedding of the future, have a HUGE rock on my skinny little finger! Here it is folks, the ooey gooey details of the most clever and creative and surprising proposal of all time:
March 23rd was our 1 year anniversary. I was so happy and excited all week about it. I know that God brought Reagan into my life for the best of all reasons, and I was eager to celebrate the wonderful year we've had together. He had already told me he thought we should revisit the locations of our first date, which I thought was terribly romantic of him to suggest. So we went to Pierview Coffee in Oceanside and got some coffee drinks while we sat and took turns answering questions in a journal that he made for me as one of my anniversary gifts.
He stopped me in the middle of journaling and suggested we go walk on the pier. I suspected nothing, and was just happy to go along and enjoy being together wherever we were. He kept steering me to certain places, stopping randomly, commenting on random things, which looking back I can now understand why and think how odd that must have been, but as I said, I was completely oblivious! It was a PERFECT day at the beach, I was wearing a lovely new dress, I was holding hands with the man I love, and we were celebrating a special day. Life was good.
He asked me to answer one of the questions from the book verbally as we walked. It was, "What was your favorite memory of this past year?" A few different ones came to mind...times together, Disneyland, playing games with his brothers, family game nights with mine, double dates, etc. They were all my favorites for different reasons. I protested that I didn't have just one favorite, so he told me to tell him a few.
So I began by sharing about the time we were walking his dog by the beautiful and unique homes by the beach in Oceanside and we were pointing out what we liked and didn't like about them. After talking on that for a while, he paused as if debating if he was going to say the next thing on his mind. He did and announced, "I'm going to buy you a house someday." I was a little breathless from that statement; it was the first time since we started dating that he had made a declaration that housed on the assumption of marriage. I tried to play cool and said, "Oh really? Well you'll have to buy me something shiny first." He said he was going to do that too.
As soon as I finished sharing that memory, he said, "Well, speaking of that," and guided me over to the side of the pier where no one was standing. He got an excited look on his face and said he couldn't wait to give me his next gift. I was excited too, just because it was a gift, and I knew he'd been working on "projects" for me all week--still no clue. He pulled a pink, wrapped box from his backpack and handed it to me, commenting on the pink paper. I laughed and said he never owned pink wrapping paper until he met me.
I opened the box, and saw a converse shoebox. I immediately knew they were yellow converse because he's hinted at buying them for me someday since I told him once I kinda wanted to wear yellow chucks to my wedding. He didn't really like that idea, but consented that it was "my" wedding, and I could do whatever I wanted. I opened the cover and saw there was writing all over them, which made me a little confused and curious. I wanted to pull them out and read what they said, but before I could start, he pulled the box out of my hands and said, "This gift comes with a question." Still feeling very confused, I asked, "Oh really? What's that?" To which he responded by getting down on one knee. I thought he was trying to be funny, but I didn't think it was very funny. He knew I wanted to marry him, and here he was on his knee giving me shoes instead of a ring!
Me: "What are you doing??" Reagan: "I'm proposing to you." Me: "No, you're not." Reagan, chuckling: "Yes, I am."
He uncovered the toe of the shoe from the tissue paper and I saw it said, "Will you marry me?" and a ring was tied to the shoelaces. I was in shock and went into "Oh my gosh!" mode with tears springing to my eyes. I said yes and there were kisses and hugs and he put the most beautiful, unique, one-of-a-kind ring on my finger.
His friend from work whom he had enlisted to be in stealth mode to take pictures of us appeared and took some more shots of us around the beach. It was surreal. I was so surprised. I knew he was going to propose eventually, but he threw me off the trail pretty good!
We spent the rest of the day calling family and friends and sitting in amazement looking at that gorgeous ring on my finger that was just for me!