We've been singing a new song at church called, "Healer." Kari Jobe sings it; It's a beautiful song. This week I had my own experience with Jesus' healing. [youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yzejd6r9DwE]
On Friday night, I suddenly was overcome with pain in my stomach. I was doubled over and the pain just seemed to get worse and worse. I was researching online different, possible causes and home remedies. I tried a few things and nothing was helping. I was beginning to think I'd have to go to the ER. The thought exhausted me as I'd just come from a bachelorette party where I stayed up till 1am and then kept getting woken up by my best friend's alarm that apparently didn't save when she tried to dismiss it at 6am. I was worn out; I just wanted to sleep, but the pain was too great to move.
I decided to have my quiet time and pray for the pain. Here's what my Jesus Calling devotion book said:
"I want to be central in your entire being. When your focus is firmly on Me, My Peace displaces fears and worries."
Okay, focus firmly on Jesus. Not the pain. Jesus. Center yourself, Tabitha. Jesus will give you peace. You don't have to be afraid or worried about this pain or what will happen because of it.
"They will encircle you, seeking entrance, so you must stay alert."
Fear and worry are not the appropriate response. Those are the easy responses, but I need to center on Jesus.
"Let trust and thankfulness stand guard, turning back fear before it can gain a foothold. There is no fear in My Love, which shines on you continually."
I trust you. Jesus, thank you for being trustworthy. You are in control of this situation. There is no fear in You.
"Sit quietly in My Love-Light, while I bless you with radiant Peace. Turn your whole being to trusting and loving me."
I just need to sit quietly through this pain. Put EVERYTHING into trusting God.
After the excerpt from Jesus Calling, a couple of Bible references are listed. What I do to further my Bible reading and revisit verses that have meant a lot to me before is read the reference listed, and then read all the verses I've underlined on those two pages. For this day, the references were 2 Thess. 3:16, which says, "Now may the Lord of peace himself give you his peace at ALL times and in EVERY situation." Perfect. Every situation. Even when I'm in so much pain I'm only able to shuffle through the house in search of something to ease my discomfort.
The second verse was 1 Jn. 4:18, "Such love has no fear, because perfect love expels all fear." On this page I read through some other verses I had underlined including 1 Jn. 5:14-15, "And we are confident that he hears us whenever we ask for anything that pleases him. And since we know he hears us when we make our requests, we also know that he will give us what we ask for." There it was, the answer for my pain. I prayed confidently that God would remove it from me, knowing he was going to give me what I asked for.
1 Jn. 5:18 was also underlined, "We know that God's children do not make a practice of sinning, for God's Son holds them securely, and the evil one cannot touch them." Jesus was holding me securely right in that moment of pain. As I was held, I rested that evil and the pain could not affect me.
My reading ended with 1 Jn. 5:21, "Dear children, keep away from anything that might take God's place in your hearts." The pain had been taking his place. But no more. I was trusting, praying, and believing.
As I finished my reading and my prayers, I felt the pain move. It traveled out of my stomach , leaving my body just enough to relieve me of the pain that had kept me doubled over. The pain was still present, But I could move better. I made my way to my room and turned off the lights. As I curled up to go to sleep, I understood that the pain was lessened enough that I could breathe freely and steadily. I curled up on my bed. Not moving helped me not feel the pain, and my ability to breathe helped me fall asleep quickly.
By the next day, the pain was gone. I didn't experience full "healing." But God gave me just the right amount of relief that I could get to sleep like I needed to and let my body finish feeling better overnight. I was blessed to witness God doing just what he knew I needed in his own perfect timing.