This was the first Saturday since September that I have not had to work on a TPA. Thankfully, I am finished with those (with passing grades!) until March when the next one is due. It was so freeing to not have a long paper to work on all day. I got up early and went biking with my girlfriends. I haven’t been in a good three weeks because of the rain and my paper. I was afraid it would be hard for me to go biking when I haven’t done it in so long. Last time I waited forever to bike again, I practically died. But it turned out to be a great ride; we went much farther than usual. If time had permitted, we all would have biked out to the beach and back. I finished making a video of our biking adventures. I've included it for your viewing pleasure. :) http://www.facebook.com/v/10150096530210390
After biking, I had a luxurious afternoon cooking and spent three hours picnicking on my beach towel with my tanning oil, my iPod, and a book. I got to read that book for enjoyment. I don’t remember the last time I had a spare minute to read for enjoyment! It was so refreshing. While I was chilling with my sweet, sunny haven, “You Can Have Me” by Sidewalk Prophets came on. The lyrics made me pause and start thinking of my own life.
If I saw You on the street And You said, “Come and follow me.” But I had to give up everything All I once held dear And all of my dreams Would I love You enough to let go? Or would my love run dry When You asked for my life?
When did love become unmoving? When did love become unconsuming? Forgetting what the world has told me Father of Love, You can have me, You can have me
If You’re all You claim to be And I’m not losing anything So I will crawl upon my knees Just to know the joy of suffering I will love You enough to let go Lord I give You my life I give You my life
I wanna be where You are (You can have me) I’m running into Your arms (You can have me) And I will never look back (You can have me) So Jesus here is my heart
When did love become unmoving? The story of God is a story of love. Everything I believe in is because He loved me. And yet, I’m content to just go about the day to day moments in my life without a second thought. The fact that Jesus gave up part of Himself because He loved me should cause me to be consumed by Him in everything that happens to me, whether big or small. My life seems so ordinary. I think that if I was really moved by His love and consumed by it, that I would be living much more radically. Every moment would have extreme significance. I would live in the light of what my Savior has done for me. Maybe it’s because I am held by my dreams. I can’t let go of them to let God have the full reigns in my life. I’m not willing to give up my dreams of comfort and safety in my life. I don’t want to give that up to be possibly uncomfortable. The world does tell me it’s okay to be safe and comfortable and just live day to day. But I must move beyond that. I must make the choice to commit my life completely in all its daily monotony to my Father of Love. He can have me. He is first. I’ve become aware of my contentedness with the place He has me in right now. I wouldn’t change a thing. However, this song has reminded me that my thoughts are not always turning to Him first. This certainly won’t do because
I wanna be where You are I’m running into Your arms And I will never look back So Jesus here is my heart.
You can have me.