Overwhelmed

Have you ever had those moments where the glory of God is so stunningly apparent to you that the only thing you can do is fall flat on your face? Last night we continued our One Prayer: Unstoppable series at Seven24. It was one of those messages that gets into the complexity of science. It always amazes me that the public school education grinds these scientific facts into our brains and fights so hard to leave God out of it. Yet when we take a look at some of the scientific facts like we studied last night, our minds are blown away at the possibility of these things actually occurring. I felt like I had the wind knocked out of me at how impossible these things would be without God.

I can't accurately give the specifics of the examples we learned about last night, but we did spend some time looking at HUGE stars, the solar system, the human embryo, and laminin. I swear the chills shivered all over my body the entire message. How is it that we come to shrink God down to pocket-size? This glorious being that didn't even have to lift a finger to put the universe into place. This great I AM who worked a perfect eyelid cutting device into the embryo so it could have eyelids at just the right moment. This God who expands across all time and dimension. Who am I that I should ask of him anything at all!?!?! The whole time I listened last night, I sat frozen in my chair feeling like the only thing I could possibly do at that moment was fall flat on my face before him. I was appalled at how casually I have learned to approach my Creator. That I would even think to ask him for such petty and selfish things, it's embarrassing.

And yet, this very same being who created this grandeur around me knows MY name and calls me by it. He knows everything about me from the deepest, secret thought to the number of hairs on my head. And he loves me in spite of it all. He holds me in the palm of his hand and will continue to do so for the rest of my life. The Lord is the everlasting God! He will not grow faint or weary. He gives strength to the weak and will renew the strength of those who wait on him.

When the message concluded, I weakly made my way to the back and fell down before him. How could I not?? I thought of the times in the Bible when God would speak or show himself to someone and their response was not to lift up their hands and smile in worship. It was to fall down in fear and cover their faces. God's glory cannot be comprehended to us. I think that's why it's so easy to put him in that nicely shaped box of ours. I am not the kind of girl that sprawls out on the floor often. But since last night, I have kept coming back to that posture. I can't even find the words to say to him. I just lie there and let the tears pour down my face. I am humbly reminded that I am nothing, and he is everything. I praise his holy name and am in awe of the fact that he knows me better than I know myself and that he actually cares!

When my heart is overwhelmed, I turn to writing. My next song is on it's way. I only hope that my earnest heart comes through in this next attempt to use my gift for his honor and glory. In the meantime, I hope you'll join me in pausing to rest in his greatness. Sit and let it sink in that the magnificent God of the universe loves you and knows you. I hope you are overwhelmed by him as I have been this week.