Student: "Miss Neal, when are you going to have a baby?"
Me: "Oh, not for a very long time. I have to get married first."
Student: "Well, my mom's not married and she had a baby."
Me: Oy vey! "Yeah, well I'm going to wait until I'm married first."
This week and last week have been sad ones for me...hearing about things going on in my students' homes. This is one of the most heart-breaking things about being a teacher. I come from a great family, where marriage and raising children have worked the way God intended it to. I know the joy of being in that positive environment. I'm not judging others' decisions, I'm just of the mindset that God has our best in mind always, and when we don't follow that plan, there are consequences. Life doesn't match up to where it should. Stories told to me of single moms staying with boyfriends who are called something different so their child can stay "innocent" or something. Stories of divorced parents not being in the loop of what's going on at home when their child is with the other parent. Knowing that there are struggles and knowing that my children are confused and a little hurt, it just breaks my heart and makes me feel so helpless. There is nothing I can do except pray for them and love on them. God has them in the palm of His hand, and He can break through and change their lives--bringing all things together for good.
Apart from the heartbreak, this has been a very stressful week too. I have so much to do and not enough time to do it! It doesn't help that I'm planning a mini vacation getaway with my sister-in-law to Seattle. Sub plans, lessons for the following week, copies and prepping prepared in advance to be ready to go when I return, and the graduation dealines and to do lists just seem to keep my head spinning while I'm on the verge of panic. I printed a calendar and started penciling things in for the remainder of the year. It's so much. It looks a little more doable on paper, but I still have no idea how long some things will take me to complete, and that makes me nervous. Big projects likes picture slideshows and packing up my classroom overwhelm me. I don't know how it's all going to get done.